Who Where or Why?
I don't know where to be
Or even why to be
The joy today has escaped from me
I fight so hard to be
To be me for who?
More for you than me?
For I don't see any worth in me
I don't know what I see
A chasm of infinity
A numbing repeated cycle, empty
Snap back now and again, reality
Is not a reality I want to be
Explain to me, my brain to me
Trauma effecting a toll on me?
Decades rolled by so silently
Wide eyed muted, stare on I plea
Infinite number of questions in me
Written in invisible ink, can't see
Not enough days left for clarity
For me to know who, where or why to be.