Updated: Dec 16, 2020
Foreword: This piece is about my rollercoaster emotions and feelings after leaving long term employment. From a busy job in a noisy office full of people to suddenly being alone with my own thoughts and perceived failings. Where I once felt useful, I now feel useless and discarded. It makes the depressive symptoms harder to fight..
The silence is deafening It grows louder each day Where once I heard banter Gone, now a whisper to fade..
To convince myself I'm not washed up Broken keel to fix Can I still measure up?
No one to bounce off Does anyone care? I find myself sitting Dazed eyes look, dazed eyes stare..
The darkest of thoughts Pass through my mind.. Find a way out Be free of these binds..
Never near the top Nor at the bottom Once so secure Now feeling forgotten..
Once out of mind Now out of sight Desolate landscapes Alone in to fight..
So when will it end? This eternal battle it seems.. Shall I stand in the rain? Will it wash me clean?
I scream so hard But nothing comes out.. No one to hear me.. A voiceless shout...
(©) Dom Giddy 2020