Thoughts in Mind Corridors.
Foreword: This piece is about fighting to keep depression at bay whilst fighting against my own uncertainty for my health and the future. About despite how hard I try at times to hold onto the thought 'it could be a lot worse' and 'I have my faith' the doors in the corridors of my mind are flung open. Resulting in the doubts and fears running amok.
Thoughts in mind corridors Fire off at will Complete disregard for me Not a care of how I feel..
Another night comes and goes As darkness bleeds to day I've given up the will to fight I think I've lost my way..
I think too much as I sit alone again Look and stare so distant Remember life before the pain All gone within an instant..
I panic for the future And what it is to hold No crystal ball to gaze in No fortune to be told..
I feel I am a burden To her and him and she Long ago I was the strong one But now my strength it flees..
My mind and soul feels shattered My mirror hits the floor Pieces of me scattered Of the man I was before..
You and I know I don't always call Despite your reassurance To catch me as I fall..
So as I think too much When I sit alone again Distracted by my demons Who scream and shout my name..
I know you won't forsake me Leave me just to be God I hope you see my fear Completely consuming me.
(©) Dom Giddy 2020