Those Two Blue Ticks

Foreword: This piece is a light hearted, making fun of myself piece about my own absurd paranoia on not receiving replies to emails. Or messages sent via social media platforms,  and even text messages. It says more no doubt, about my own insecurities than any bad intent or feelings towards me from the recipient . The logical side of my brain tells me I know I haven't done anything to result in a lack of response, but then, have I? That's the way my mind works! Inevitably 9 times out of 10 I will receive a reply! But does this knowledge relinquish the same old paranoia..of course not! Am I the only one who thinks like this? Somehow in this technological driven world we live in and how we communicate, I doubt it.

I wonder why you don't reply Do you hear a word I've said? Whether night or day, or text on phone I don't know if you've read..

My words to you are from within A part of me you have Gone from me across the space For you to ignore again..

I'm not sure what I've done to you before Am I really that abhorrent? My mind plays tricks that rush away Like storm fed rushing torrent..

Those two blue ticks Tell me you see, you see I can see you've seen I fight the urge to prompt your reply Or am I far too keen?

An email sent with best intent Seems lost in cyber ether I sit and wait with bated breath Like some desperate needy creature..

But lives are so busy with this and that That get in the way of each other To reply to a text or email I've sent My mind says I guess they're not bothered..

I guess that I am guilty too Of failing to reply At least not now or straight away I admit it I cannot lie..

Gone are the days when letter was king Or to actually speak on the phone At least with a voice or a letter reply Somehow I felt less alone.

(©) Dom Giddy 2020