Foreword: This piece is about my struggles with depression and the situation of the COVID-19 lockdown. How my brain deceives me into self loathing and how my mind constantly over thinks. And how this all sits with my faith, but also how by having a faith, helps me go forward.
Parallel life am I in now? Stumble and tripping With a furrowed brow..
Unrecognisable world spins beneath my feet Swept from under me As I gently weep..
No understanding of days gone by Or those set before me Life lived on the fly..
If I close my eyes Dark as they are when open Clowns smile straining, shrouding the lies..
Eyes stare at me Bore into my soul, thoughts they have about me I can't control..
White noise of whirring Life in my ears, I try to think it through To ease the fears..
Thoughts in my skull, stuck on repeat Silent screams unheard End in retreat..
There have been many times I've thought it's too late All I can do is trust in my faith..
Look to your promise In your arms rests my soul When I've fallen apart, I'm saved, made whole...
(©) Dom Giddy 2020