He Said, I Said.

Foreword: I was just sitting watching TV trying to ignore the tingling limbs as I have become accustomed to over the last 3 or 4 weeks. I must admit that today hasn't been too bad compared to previous ones. My family have gone out, I should have gone with them. But with very little sleep last night I have stayed at home. At least I have Dave for company! (Dave is our dog!) I began to think about how sorry for myself I have been feeling about my current health concerns. I then begain to think about how many many millions, possibly billions of other people in the world are far worse off than me. They would no doubt give their right arm to be in my position, or any other limb should they choose to. I started to think about how I often try to cope and face whatever life throws at me in my own strength and not Gods. I do it again and again, I am human, I will fail, no doubt, again and again. This led me to think about how a conversation would go with God if I were to bump into him, as I would a good friend I hadn't seen for a while and he asked how I really am. Then reminding me of his love and grace.

Hello he said

Alright? I said

How you doing there?

As though my thoughts he knows, he read 

He said you know I really care..

Not bad I said

Seemed my standard reply

I see he said

Already knowing it was really a lie..

Are you sure he said

Prodding at my soul

I'm sure you know he said

Through me you are made whole..

I know I said sheepishly looking at the floor

Look at me he said, receive my grace

You're never alone anymore..

My human ways and pride get in the way at times I said, I really am ashamed

I know he said, I see he said

Here, let me take your shame..

I'm amazed I said, humbled I said 

You love me in this way

No need he said, for you I bled

I love you each and every day..

I'm a creature of habit I said, I'll fail I said

Again, again and again 

I know he said, come to me he said 

Find the sunshine and not the rain..

Give me your troubles and speak to me he said

Don't be afraid to bare it all

I'm with you through winds and storms 

I'll hold you, you won't fall..

I trust you I said, I have to I said

For I cannot do it alone 

I'm with you he said, through everything he said

You're never on your own..

Don't forget I'm here he said

I'll try I said, but you know I'll probably fail?

I know he said, it's alright he said

I'm always waiting, to guide you on life's trail..

I don't deserve it I said

You do he said, my unconditional love is infinite 

I'm saved I said, looking into his eyes

You are he said, now forever, each second hour and minute.

(©) Dom Giddy 2020